RE: Transformation.....Help!!

I did it yesterday...I had somebody give me a transformation. I was not happy with the results may I say. The person that did is more in the CD mindset and like to wear a lot of make-up and dress more what other words may I say sluty. First I'm not into it ....the make-up and dressing sluty. My mindset is not that of CD. I'm old hippie at heart. So give me a denim skirt and cotton top. Very little make-up I like the more natural and mature look. I try it and if someone like to see the results I can email a picture to you. ( believe me you can have a good laugh) It would be nice to have a mentor to show me the correct way of becoming what I like to achieve. Being trans to me is something that is a mindset and also political in nature. Being accepted by other woman and transpeople also is important to me as well. I think the one that get dress up and go to the bars on the weekend and act trampy doesn't help the cause it just makes it stereotypical of what people think of trans people. That a shame. Well it back to drawing table. I will say I don't have bad legs. They couldn't ruin that. It was something I want to try and I did. It was also a very cold enviroment to me as well. They told me whatever they felt I wanted to hear.

From the Rainbow Room to Iraq

It funny I try a new adventure this weekend I went to bar called the Rainbow Room on East Eight Mile Road and let me say I will vote to make bar's all nonsmoking in a New York Minute. The other thing is the majority of lesbians that were at this bar, well let say they didn't make me feel warm and wanting to get to know me at all. The bartender was about the only nice one I meet there. She didn't charge me for a club soda after two Rolling Rocks at $4.00 a piece. The trannies that were there well .....they have they work ahead of them if they want to pass as woman. So here my question about being the different gender if you can't do it well then should you do it? I walk out there more confused because when I see two woman being emotional and holding each other I get excited wishing it was me. I want to thank the bartender for letting me into her world last night. She and the other bartender a little older woman probably in mid-40's and they acted like lovers and to watch them interact together well it fun and very cute. The reality of it all is that I'm 6'3 and 230 pound person. I do not look like the woman I truly would like to look like. I drove home for over forty minute drive listening to some good old rock'n roll I must admit I do not like dance music at all. So what I need to do is open a gay friendly mature bar with a good taste in background music. Maybe there is such a place in Michigan I just haven't found it.
The next subject about Iraq and all the bullshit that happening there just get me even more mad at current administration. I was actually watching Meet the Press this morning and what scare me was I agreed with Pat Buchcan. Don't worry I still flipping liberal and fighter for the cause. Pat just believes we need to get the hell out of there and that Bush basically make deals with the devil to improve he popularity points. I agree. We got to keep the pressure on these politicians and to war on descend of Bush policies. Oh, well. I actually did another wacky thing yesterday I went in to store called Lover's Lane on Woodward in Royal Oak. They actually have saleswoman in there and that show you all their products. I actually blush when I was back in I what I guess is adult toy department and the sales woman tells me that the area I was looking at is mostly the anal area. EH! I want to buy a vibrator for myself. Even at fifty years of age one still wants a sometype of sex life. But I must be living in cave the selection was unbelievable didn't know of all the different type of weird toys their are. I did buy one .....not the anal one those. As Woody Alan one said " It better to do it somebody that you love". I guess I like my sex like my music and drink. Simple and pure. Peace.

RE: Superbowl Night

It funny I was at Superbowl Party and we all had great time and then at halftime. Sir Paul Mc Carthny was playing it was great it seem at moment everybody watching was singing " Hey Jude" it one classic moment. Then the downer came when a old friend who so to right it was painful we got into argument about Health Care Insurance and the cost and how out of control it is. May I say thank GOD for drugs that help me with my problem this week. I started a new drug for my RA called EMBEREL it another shot once a week and then my doc gave something it relieve the inflammation on my wrist and fingers even those it he said he might be temporary. One day without pain is a good one. Like I said to him I like to pitch 9 innings instead of the problems of walking up & down the stairs. I guess being a translesbian isn't what happens when I still have some of my old male ways but I love my female ways as I get older. Why does getting to get layed always have to be about GENDER? The Eagles gave a great fight ...It was both two Blue States against each other. Well that my story and hope you listen and read the blog. Music tonight was from Sly & Family Stone " Family Affair" to Boz Scaggs " Loan Me A Dime" .